On patience and other things

I feel beautiful today.

Not for any particular reason. I mean, I guess partially because I’m wearing a new dress. I bought it online from a new-to-me retailer – Boden, who makes British-inspired clothes for tall people (as well as normal and kid-sized folks too!). The dress is pink and flowery, somewhat out-of-the-ordinary of what I normally wear, which is exactly why I bought it. I’ve gotten a lot of comments on it, people saying I look very spring-ready, cheery and bright, which makes me happy.

I’ve also been actively working on being patient with myself. I was listening to a podcast yesterday about a man with anxiety who developed an online bot to quash the scary voice in his head. It made me think about all of the negative things I tell myself on a daily basis, about how unproductive I am or how I failed to work out enough or eat right or how what I’m doing is wrong, wrong, wrong. Even the stupidest things I’d berate myself for. If I missed a streetlight even, Sarah, you should have walked faster, you should have left sooner, just so you could make this one light.

It dawned on me that I’d never tell the people I love those things – so why am I telling them to myself?

Now every time it pops up, I put an end to it right away. There’s only so much I can do to better myself, but this constant pessimistic soundtrack is doing nothing to help. If anything, it’s making it worse.

So yes. New dress, less negativity. I’m also listening to a playlist my sister told me about (Coffee House Blend on Spotify, if anyone’s interested) full of singer-songwriter/indie tunes and not rushing through work. It’s sunny outside, and I get to see Davis tonight. I have so much to be thankful for. Life’s looking pretty good at the moment.

Tom Hanks

Davis and I have a bit of an obsession with Tom Hanks.

(Wow, that sounds a little creepy. I don’t mean it in a stalker-scary way, I promise!)

It’s just that, wow, that man’s amazing. Serious films, rom-coms, animated flicks, you name it, he’s done it – and done it well. So many of our favorite movies have him in it: Sleepless in Seattle, Toy Story, Saving Private Ryan, You’ve Got Mail, Philadelphia, Apollo 13 – the list goes on and on. I loved his performance as Walt Disney in Saving Mr. Banks, and the end of Captain Phillips moved me to tears.

And you know what I think I like most about him? He seems like a real, down-to-earth person. He talks with his fans – takes pictures with them, writes them letters, pulls (nice) pranks on them. He seems so truly good and so grateful. That’s how I’d want to be if I were ever famous.

(Oh, and he’s in love with his wife. Which is awesome. Go love!)

We talk about it sometimes in the hypothetical – what it’d be like to meet him. I’ve been lucky enough to see him in real life once – I was 11 or 12 when they filmed part of Catch Me If You Can near my house and my neighbors and I got to watch for a bit (and he was there). But to actually be able to talk to him would be so cool!! Even after discussing it a number of times, we still have no idea what we’d say to him. Somehow I’m not satisfied with “Hiiiiiiiiii I’m your biggest fan….. *freak out*” unless the “biggest fan” part would be in That Thing You Do! form.

Anyway. We really like Tom Hanks. I feel like the possibility of this happening is so slim that saying this is ridiculous, but: Tom, if you’re ever in Seattle, you should come hang out with us! We’d love to take you out to dinner. We promise we’d be cooler and less fangirl-ish than we are here 😛