Over-Thinking My Future

I really struggle with focusing on the now.

I think a lot about my future. Wait, that previous statement doesn’t even seem to cover it; what I mean is, I think entirely too much about it. The idea of what’s next in life just consumes me. There’s a stream of questions in my head that just can’t seem to be shut off. Here, listen in: What will I do with my degree? Where will I be three, five, ten years from now? Where will I live then? Will I be happy when (never “if”, it seems) I get married? What about twenty years after that – will I still be happy? Will having kids make me happy? Should I have kids? Should I have them when I’m 29, or when I’m 34? Will I still be working then?

It just goes on and on. And quite honestly, it’s ridiculous. I will never know who, what, or where I’ll be sometime in the future until I actually get there. No amount of worrying or over-contemplating will change my life. If anything, it will just make me more stressed. It will cloud my head with unnecessary thoughts that will freak me out when some aspect of my life is not completed “on time.” And it will stop me from living right now.

So this is what I want to focus on: I want to think about today, and tomorrow. And that’s it. Yes, I can plan my vacation next week, or who will bring what to my new apartment in the fall. But in terms of who I’ll be in seven years, no. I’m not allowed to think that far ahead. (please pray for me on this account… I know this will be very difficult for me to do!)

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One response to “Over-Thinking My Future

  1. “25”Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28″And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
    -Matthew 6:25-34

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